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Melissa
Sep 7, 20222 min read
Uber-Sensitive
It’s been a really long while, but believe it or not, I’m still here behind the screen ruminating about therapy. Still sitting on that...
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Melissa
Aug 3, 20222 min read
A Fragmented Story
I need to grieve. But I don’t know what to grieve or how. The grief is a constant ache in my chest, a fixture so permanent that I can’t...
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Melissa
Jul 28, 20222 min read
Why Therapists Never Win
Poor therapists. They can never get anything right. Actually, scratch that. My poor therapist. Maybe yours can. Because whatever she will...
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Melissa
Jul 21, 20222 min read
When Therapy Doesn’t Feel Therapeutic
Apparently, I’m here for healing — for you to teach me that I have a place in the world. That there are actually people who have my back....
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Melissa
Jul 13, 20222 min read
Visitor
It always sneaks in from behind, and I don’t recognize it. All I know is that I’m irritable, my fuse is so short, and nothing I do even...
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Melissa
Jul 13, 20222 min read
Healing Hurts
This is supposed to be healing. Healing hurts. Healing is endless. Healing feels nothing like soothing and remedies and balms. Healing...
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Melissa
Jul 6, 20222 min read
Poised for Battle
Someone’s approaching. Inching closer to my hideout. Reflexively, my finger hits the trigger. I fire. And I slink back into hiding,...
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Melissa
Jul 1, 20222 min read
The Problem With Gray
The problem with this therapy thing is that I can never comfortably ensconce myself in a clear train of thought. I’m always stuck...
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Melissa
Jun 28, 20222 min read
The Fence I Built
I’m dying of thirst Just a few feet away from water Behind a fence Of my own making Why did I erect this fence And cordon myself off...
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Melissa
Jun 27, 20222 min read
When Enough Is Enough
Do you ever feel like some stuff should have already been resolved, or made peace with, and yet it keeps reemerging? And you don’t want...
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Melissa
Jun 23, 20222 min read
Chair Amnesia
I would love to say that the reason I go blank during sessions is that I don't prepare and it catches me unawares. Ha, if only that were...
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Melissa
Jun 16, 20222 min read
All-You-Can-Talk Tuesday
Come Tuesday, and it’s time to talk. It’s time to fill myself up by, as ironic as it is, getting some of the stuff choking me out. For...
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Melissa
Jun 12, 20221 min read
What Would Newton Say?
The person at my elbow is talking about Shavuos. I do a double take. Wait. Is Shavuos gonna be, or was it Shavuos already? Oh, it was....
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Melissa
May 30, 20221 min read
Roadblock?
I actually wrote this exactly a year ago (to the date!) and sent it to my therapist. But I found it now, and I could have written it all...
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Melissa
May 29, 20222 min read
Lost
I woke up in a haze; I’d been in one all weekend. But I knew I was equipped. I’d get out as soon as I was ready. I dug into my toolbox...
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Melissa
May 26, 20222 min read
Vow of Silence
At one point, many years ago, I needed to guard the little sense of self I had left. So I took upon myself an oath of silence. The less...
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Melissa
May 15, 20221 min read
Where’s the Rulebook?
The problem with me is that I don’t know how to do life. Despite the months and months (and months and months) of therapy, I still don’t...
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Melissa
May 12, 20221 min read
House of Horrors
There are parts of my past that I just don’t feel like visiting. Just the thought of doing so haunts me. It’s pitch black in there with...
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Melissa
May 9, 20221 min read
No Unattended Children
Do you ever want to opt out of a therapy session? To simply send your inner child to therapy without you? That’s just what I want to do....
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Melissa
May 2, 20221 min read
A Way Out?
I feel like the more I search, the more lost I get. The more I try to dig, the more dust I kick up, which blurs my vision and gives my...
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